one year later..

EXTREMELY LONG POST AHEAD.





you have been warned.

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today marks the 1 years anniversary of my very last post here on blogger. 1 year, 1 whole freaking year has gone by! and my God, the heck of a year it's been..

i was reading through all my old posts last night, flinching at the amount of immaturity and LAME i put into each one of them, but one post definitely stood out and got me thinking and actually evaluating the year i had.. and that was my 2nd last post, January 6th 2010.

i rambled on and on, saying how 2010 was going to pwn all previous years and bring some badass changes to my life.. verdict? things changed all right, SO MANY things changed last year! and whether it was for the better, i'm still trynna figure that one out.. but OHMYGOD did things change. see, i just cant stress that fact enough! 2010 turning my world upside down, spun it 360 degrees faster, flipped in right side up and went on turning right side round again, leaving me to deal with the turmoil that took place halfway.

the most major change that took place last year was ofcourse, the passing of my grandfather. he was diagnosed with stage 4 liver cancer in January last year and what with his age and all, there was nothing we could do but wait. in the months leading up to his death, grands just got thinner and weaker, until it suddenly came to a point where he got so tired just by walking from the room to the living room. days turned into weeks and finally, he got admitted to JPMC on the 27th of October, 2010.. that was the last time any of us saw him conscious.

he passed at around 3 am on the 2nd of November, and his funeral took place on the 3rd of November. grands's death may have been a huge loss to the whole Wards clan, but in a way, it actually brought our whole family closer together. the whole clan was over at my house everynight for a whole week, having prayers and just being together for nane in this crucial time. two months have passed, and we're all doing much better now. we may not talk about him much, or bring him up at all for that matter, but we all still miss him and think about him.. well i know i do, and i know he know's that i do.

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2010 was also my very last year of being a St. Georgian, and i had the privilege of being assistant head girl, too. my school life last year was pretty amazing, i must say. my classmates and i bonded so much in our final year together and we made so many memories within the four walls of our class that will never ever forget. one pretty sad part of that school year however, was the departure of one of my very good friends, my favourite little indian boy - Farman. yup, that bastard left us to "further his studies" orwhatever in India, and that in itself cause a major change in the class. Farman was like.. THE joker, THE class clown, THE person that EVERYONE would laugh at! the boy that not only made things happen in the class, but in the whole school too. (he was Head boy) nobody wanted him to go.. but alas, he just haaaaaad to leave us to rot in sgs while he moved on to his homeland. things did change in the classroom after his departure; we all quieted down, attention was transferred over to zul/rayhan and Form 5B was never the same again.. but hey, life went on and we still had the best year ever.

O levels came and went too, and after stressing over it for 8 months, we were just so relieved and ecstatic to get it over and done with. as of now though, i DO NOT want to think about how i did, so i'm just gonna hope for the best and pray to God that i did well enough to make-ma-mama-proud.

leaving St Georges.. actually wasn't a very big deal. well i thought it would be though, and i spent days just zoning out in school, thinking of life after it and sometimes, SOMETIMES.. i'd even cry. over right? it was sad though, especially during our last gathering at the parish hall (which btw was rudely cut short by the three doucefags for the o level briefing. motherfuckers, i hate them and i'm so glad i don't have to see their stupid faces ever again.. except when i visit sgs) where we all ate and sang and cried and thanked our teachers.. yea that was sad. but our last exam however - Bio paper 1 - it was ended with more excitement and relief rather than sorrow. i on the other hand, was all "omg, last exam ever" and "omg this will be the last time i'm in this class" and like "omg never gonna be in a class with these people again" and yadayadayada. when our papers were taken though, i was all "FUCK DAAA SHIT, HALLELUJAHHHHHHH". haha.

but yea.. i actually really miss SGS, especially now that i'm on a long-ass holiday and have absolutely nothing to do at home. at all. except bake, i like to bake now. baked my first cake today actually. TEEHEE. i miss the thrill of entering a new year at a new level in a new class with new teachers and the possibility of new students. yea, i like all those new thangs.. which is kinda getting me really like superduperuberholycrapEHEHEHEHEHICAN'TWAITZOMGEEEEEEEEK excited for college! but yea, i need to get the results i need to get in first though, but i'm already excited! ofcourse, things are gonna change like, big time. even bigger changes than last year! what with a whole new environment to work with, a whole new set of people i'll have to interact with.. it's just gonna be way different than high school life. the workload's gonna be crazy, the hours are going to be stressing.. AND I'M JUST SO EXCITED! eheh heh heh heh. but that's still about 2 months away so for now, i'm just gonna keep on bumming, keep on exciting myself and just.. wait i guess?

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and you didn't think i'd forget about my lover boy did you? well Danial and i.. and are still Danial and i. we went through many the rough patches in 2010 but we always manage to pull through in the end and now? after 1 year, 8 months and 1 week, we're still going on stronger than ever and i have no idea how i'd have made it through last year without him by my side every step of the way. i love you Danial, and even after 20 months, i'm still falling in love you every single day cause like i said - i be loving you long time. <3>

i know i said there were like a shitloada changes that went on in 2010, but.. it's late, i'm too lazy to think and i just want to get this over and done with so i watch more nigahiga videos.

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OH YEA SEAN GOT MARRIED TO TING IN JUNE AND IT WAS AWESOME. and now? ....SHE'S PREGGERS AND EXPECTING A BABY WARD IN JULY AND WE'RE ALL JUST SO EXCITED, ESPECIALLY ME CAUSE I'M GONNA BE AN AUNT HEHEHE YIPEEEEEEEEEEE.

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so here's to 2011 and the changes it will bring. and oh, no promises to when i'll post again cause like last time.. it took me a whole year. haha. but hey, new year, new changes.. so i just might blog more often now.. just might. ;D

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